Am I going to let this month go by without blogging? No, I shouldn’t. So hi. I have been meaning to blog for awhile now, but these days I find it extra difficult to arrange my thoughts. I do think a lot though, that much hasn’t changed. I don’t know if overthinking is just in my nature or I am purposely trying to think myself sick but I feel sad, scared, worried, and all these feelings really tire me out.
Linkin Park – Heavy
Please listen to the song while reading, and do let me know how you feel about it.
This is such a good song. I know it doesn’t sound like the Linkin Park I grew up with, but this song still resonates with me, and it also has a really, really nice sound. Continue reading “I don’t like my mind right now”
Harry Styles – Sign of the Times
Just a quick book update! I finished reading Counting by 7s by Holly Goldberg Sloan at around midnight yesterday. Almost got me tearing up a couple of times. 4.5 stars out of 5, I feel. Stayed up just to finish reading it so maybe that’s an indication that it’s a good book? I don’t know, I guess I’m just motivated to finish reading it within a day.
That’s the thing about time.
A second can feel like forever if what follows is heartbreak.
Beyoncé – Irreplaceable
I’m all about old Beyonce honestly. Feel free to check out my throwback Spotify playlist:
It’s basically a playlist consisting of the popish (and ballads too I think) songs I used to listen to back then. My pop-punk music deserves a separate playlist, might share that sometime in the future. We’ll see. Continue reading “Everything you own in the box to the left”
Fall Out Boy – Alone Together
So I have a really strong urge to delete blog posts again. Nothing new, as I have cleared this blog and changed its url more times than I can remember. But as of now, I am convincing myself not to and just stick with it. Also, the wifi here is currently awfully, painfully slow. I keep trying to download the latest episode of Riverdale but it keeps failing. I am not a huge fan of the series though to be honest. The main reason why I bother watching the show is because of the characters. The familiarity of them. The nostalgia of reading the comics, and seeing them come to life (kinda). I do really wish they instilled more of the original Archie Comics though – but hey, who am I to say all this.
I do have to admit that I really like Jughead. So far. I think.
I have also finally caught up to the latest season and episode of Supernatural! It took me a little over a month to watch 250ish episodes but I did it! I don’t know whether I should be happy or sad (at my total lack of a social life), and whether I should feel as proud as I do of this accomplishment, but it is so worth it though. I love Supernatural. Maybe I should try catching up with Grimm next. I have only watched like three episodes from the first season and I quite like it so far.
But first, I really have to direct my focus on studies. Grimm can wait until semester break. (Stranger Things 2 anyone? Ah I can’t wait to revisit Hawkins/The Upside Down and reunite with the characters!) But until then, I have got tons of work piling up. Research to do, reports to write, presentations to prepare for. On the up side, approximately 9 months to go and I will (finally) be done with my Masters. Won’t even feel the time pass by.
What’s next? Ah. Adulting. Trying to find a job. PhD? Maybe someday, insyaAllah. Pray for me.
Growing up is not fun. Kids, don’t grow up too fast.
And before I forget! I also sold my artwork (if I can call them art, I definitely don’t think they are worthy of the title though) last two Sundays! I managed to sell 7 pieces that day. Not bad for a newbie. I honestly was prepared for the worst! The most memorable customer, I have to say, was this one lady. She is a psychologist, and she said that she knew that our work (my cousin sold her stuff too, she was the one who brought me to join in the first place) took time, took effort. So she bought one piece from each of us for her office! My cousin said that we need more people like her.
Another customer, also memorable to me, was contemplating to buy that she paced around and outside and finally came back to buy the piece when I honestly thought she changed her mind.
It was a really good experience for me, in stepping out of my comfort zone. What’s next for my “art” though? I don’t know. (ps, have patience, and never, ever smudge.)
And so that is an update on my life.
Until next time.