Breathe

Breathe

Am I going to let this month go by without blogging? No, I shouldn’t. So hi. I have been meaning to blog for awhile now, but these days I find it extra difficult to arrange my thoughts. I do think a lot though, that much hasn’t changed. I don’t know if overthinking is just in my nature or I am purposely trying to think myself sick but I feel sad, scared, worried, and all these feelings really tire me out.

Final semester is approaching, and I can assure you that I am not ready. Honestly though, I am even more unprepared for life after masters. The easier route will be continuing studies, but there are other priorities now. As my parents’ eldest child, it is time for me to provide. I can see that my parents are tired now. It’s about time for me to ease the burden they carry on their shoulders. It’s time for me, to move to the next stage of adulthood. And that, scares the crap out of me. Will I be able to give back and support my family?

Also given the current job market, and the economy of the country, the future seems scarier than ever. And I have got 4 months left to face that reality. Will I ever be ready though? But ready or not, I believe that with time, things will fall into place. I know that we’ll make it through any hardship. In due time. When God wills it be. Because God is good. God is fair. It will all be okay in the end. I need to constantly remind myself of that.

I just need to stop worrying so much.

Wish me luck for my final semester!

Until next time.

-F.

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Canon 50mm 1.8 STM: First Impressions

Canon 50mm 1.8 STM: First Impressions

Hello! This is my first post after my blog revamp. I really need to commit myself to blogging more often.

Commonly known in the photography world as the Nifty Fifty, after weeks of waiting, I finally have this DSLR lens on hand! Like most things here in this country, this lens, which many have said to be one of the cheapest, must-have, value for money prime lens in the market right now, is slightly (or more than slightly) overpriced. Oh Brunei.

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We gotta get away from here

Harry Styles – Sign of the Times

Just a quick book update! I finished reading Counting by 7s by Holly Goldberg Sloan at around midnight yesterday. Almost got me tearing up a couple of times. 4.5 stars out of 5, I feel. Stayed up just to finish reading it so maybe that’s an indication that it’s a good book? I don’t know, I guess I’m just motivated to finish reading it within a day.

That’s the thing about time.

A second can feel like forever if what follows is heartbreak.

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Everything you own in the box to the left

Beyoncé – Irreplaceable

I’m all about old Beyonce honestly. Feel free to check out my throwback Spotify playlist:

 

It’s basically a playlist consisting of the popish (and ballads too I think) songs I used to listen to back then. My pop-punk music deserves a separate playlist, might share that sometime in the future. We’ll see. Continue reading “Everything you own in the box to the left”